I feel like every time I sit down to write a blog post, I’m always apologising for how long it’s been since I last posted! I’ll be the first to acknowledge that I probably do have too much on my plate, but I just cannot seem to stop. I think one of my biggest fears is wasting my time, not making the most of the opportunities I have etc. The best way to address this in my head seems to be to just do as much and as many things as possible. I know, completely illogical. But I am after all, only human.
I’m currently on my long service leave, which is basically a few months that I took off work to focus on myself and my own things and its been a weird roller coaster. Despite not having to go to my day job, I feel busier than ever. I didn’t think that was possible. But I’ve come to realise that I’m a real “hoarder” when it comes to time. If I see a gap in my calendar, I’ll fill it with something. And I’ll keep doing that till I feel overwhelmed.
As I reflect back on my job, my businesses, my channels and even my blog I think I’m finally starting to work out how I want things to settle. (To some degree…)
This blog which was always a platform to review the latest beauty products, share my videos and blog about many more things has become dusty because consistently “working” isn’t what I want to do here. I have a job, I have my own side businesses, I have a channel that all focus on “working”.
When I first started blogging, I used my blog as a daily diary for how I was feeling and sharing my inner thoughts with a small circle of friends who would read it. And I’m starting to realise that over time I’d like my blog to return to a state similar to that. Simply a little corner of the internet for myself to blog about my feelings, my interests and a place to feel safe and free.
Below is a vlog I uploaded a few months ago on my “main” channel, where Tobias and I decided to actually book a weekend away in Torquay. A town about 60-90 mins south west of Melbourne, and I’m convinced we need to do many more of these types of mini vacations. It was amazing to go away for a very short amount of time where we were forced to relax, it was exactly what I needed to stay sane in an otherwise hectic time of my life.
I have to admit that I find blogging incredibly therapeutic, and I love to do it. However the editing portion of it has always proven the toughest part due to my time poor life. So I can’t promise that you should be expecting a ton more vlogs in the future, but I can promise you I shall be filming a bunch more 🙂